Earlier today, Gretchen and I stood up in front of the church and announced that I would be stepping down from my position as Worship Leader at Christ Community Church.

A Little History

About 9 years ago, I was the worship leader for a small church plant in the Inland Empire. It was not a good experience. The leadership was not supportive, our relationship with the pastor was demeaning, and when we left we shook the dust off our feet. I had no place to go, no obvious means of income, but we had to get gone.

We bounced around for a few months, moved to Burbank, and then out of nowhere I got an email from Doug Scholten, the pastor at CCC. Their worship leader had left with two weeks notice, and Doug was scrambling to find an interim who could hold down the gig for a month or so while they looked for someone to take the position. We met, it went well, and I agreed to cover the gap. Mother’s Day of 2003 was my first Sunday at the church.

As they looked at candidates for the position, they asked me if I was interested. I kept saying no – I wasn’t interested in a church gig, I didn’t want to get back into that mess.

After 6 months, Gretchen and I realized that we did, actually, really want to be there. The people were warm and welcoming, the position was well-defined and well-suited to my abilities. More than that, Doug was the kind of pastor that all church musicians hope for. He respected music and the arts, was willing to try new things, and was able to step back and allow me to do my job. I submitted my resume, and they hired me as the Worship Leader.

Some Highlights

In my first year at CCC, Doug asked me to preach. It was the first time I had been asked to preach anywhere. It was an overwhelming and awe-filling experience, and one that I came to both dread and relish.

We have a seasonal choir at CCC, but most of the choir lit wasn’t appropriate for our group. I started writing and arranging music for our choir, and as I’m sitting here looking at my scores folder, over 8 years I’ve written or arranged 30 pieces of choral music for this choir. There’s nothing quite like the relentless necessity of Christmas and Easter to force you to build a catalog of work!

Good Friday has become a tradition of experiential risk-taking for us. One year we created an immersive environment with 30 laptops projecting photos and videos, and live-blogging stations for people to record their reactions. Last year we booked a string quartet to play a meditative concert of challenging contemporary music. The path from “What if we …” to “Let’s try it!” was well-worn.

A few years ago, we added a Classic service at 8am on Sunday mornings. I wasn’t thrilled with the idea initially, but it has become the perfect way to start the out the Sunday haul. Instead of jumping right in to running charts, setting tech, rehearsing the band, I get to start the day by sitting quietly and playing through two hymns with a small congregation. It’s a brief meditation for me, and has become one of my favorite things.

In the time I’ve been at CCC, we’ve had about 12 students from APU come through and play with the team, sometimes for a few weeks, sometimes for much longer. It’s been a place where some of the things we talk about in class can be worked out very practically, like a “lab” extension to the lectures.

Both of our children were born and then dedicated at CCC. I love that we gather around and lay hands on new parents, commissioning them to the ministry of parenthood.

The Transition

In the last few years, Gretchen and I have been feeling a strong pull to find a local church. We love many things about CCC, but the drive is 45 minutes on Sunday morning, and an hour and a half during rush hour. The time and distance mean that we can’t be part of the community of Christ Community Church. Our kids can’t be in the children’s choir, Gretchen and I can’t be in small groups or make it out to social functions.

We believe in the mission of the church. We believe that it has the power to change lives and communities. That power, though, is worked out through the relationships within the church, and between the church and those in the community around it. If you’re only present for Sunday morning, if you are forced by time and distance to stand one step removed from the other people in the congregation, then you might be “going” to church, but it is impossible to participate in the transforming power of church. You can’t serve the mission. You can’t be served by the mission.

So, we starting praying and looking for a chance to make the transition to a local church.

The Road Ahead

February 27th will be our last Sunday, after which I will step down from my position as worship leader. March 6th I’ll begin leading a small early morning chapel service at a large church in the Irvine area. It’s a traditional music service, with piano and organ, along with the occasional string quartet and guest soloists. It’s early in the morning, and so I’ll be home in time for us to find a 10:30 service at a local church, where we can attend together as a family.

There are many things we will miss from the last 8 years, but there are also some things we’re looking forward to.

We’re looking forward to sitting together during a worship service.

We’re looking forward to attending a small group or bible study together.

I’m looking forward to being that guy every worship leader dreams of, who walks up after the service and says “Hey, I’d love to sub on the worship team sometime if you need someone to cover keyboards,” and then can actually play!

I’m looking forward to a smaller scope of responsibility, to a simpler service. I’m looking forward to Easter and Christmas being seasons of joy, instead of dread.

The seed that was planted with the hymn service at our church has blossomed. I’m looking forward to playing music from the deep and rich tradition of the church.

I’m looking forward to volunteering for things … or, saying “no” to things!

Leaving Well

There are so few times in Church when we are able to leave well. It seems like most transitions happen because the church is unhappy, or there is conflict with the leadership, or character issues, or because someone leaves for a better gig, or more money, or … anyway, we as a church have a bad history of ending ministries well.

This is a good transition. Hard, but good. We are leaving a healthy ministry behind, we are leaving with the blessing and goodwill of the congregation, and we are leaving for the best of reasons.

This is a good thing.

6 thoughts on “Transition

  1. Elena Brohmer

    Hi, Mr. Lee. I really appreciate hearing your thoughts as you take this new step, even though it’s not my church you’re leaving. It’s always a blessing to see ministry (and even the conclusion of ministry) done in an honorable and gracious way. Praying for you and your family!

  2. Claire Fedoruk

    Hi Mike!
    So glad to hear that is transition is a good and smooth one for you and the family. I have to admit that I have shared your past experiences with church work and also leaving church work. I currently have a church job where the conductor is gracious enough to let me make my own schedule of when I’ll be singing and not, which makes the times that I’m there far more special. Good for you and the fam for this great, though difficult decision!

  3. sharolyn

    Wow, Mike and Gretchen, ‘read this twice to wrap my brain around it all. You’ve always taken a full load of responsibilities with utmost grace and created such a rich life for your family. I am thrilled for you, both that you have had this treasured experience, and for the hope that you might have one that is new and meaningful.

  4. Dan Radmacher

    Hey man,

    Good words. I love it when someone leaves after having served faithfully, and that is certainly you. I remember that first transition, and I’m rejoicing in the second.


  5. michael Post author

    We had our farewell sunday yesterday. It was good, hard, emotionally exhausting, and perfect.

    At the end of the service, Pastor Doug, who has followed this blog almost since the beginning, reminded the congregation that we were standing in the room where I had preached my first message, and where I had officiated communion for the first time. He reminded people of Gretchen’s gift of hospitality, her ability to make everyone at the table feel welcome. As a symbol and reminder of both of those things, he presented us with the handmade cup and plate that the church uses when they celebrate communion. It was overwhelming.

    I think he may have dug himself a bit of a hole though, because next Sunday is communion. They might be stuck using a dixie cup and a plastic plate. Either that, or I might get a text message from Doug on Saturday night asking if they can borrow the cup this week!

    Afterward we had a reception and a chance to say goodbye to everyone. It was tearful and long – as it should be. It was especially meaningful to see people from the older generation coming up to us with tears in their eyes, saying how much they appreciated our music. Many of them were not all that excited when we first showed up, but over the years they’ve grown to be some of our best encouragers and supporters.

    It was a blessed season, and it has ended at its due time, and in the best way.

  6. Roger Nixon

    As someone who has been blessed to have served with you for the past 8 years at CCC, I consider it a blessing to have known you, your passion for music, and your dedication to serve our Lord. I feel privileged to have served with you each Sunday morning these past years. The years have gone by way too fast unfortunately. I have enjoyed the ride though. It has been one of the best musical experiences I have had in my lifetime. You have always encouraged those in the band to be better than they ever thought possible and you have also been gracious when we stumbled now and then.

    While it is apparent to all that you are extreemly gifted and talented as a musician, you always were able to encourage others not as well gifted to better exercise their unique gifts and talents before the Lord. You made us all better and I think God was well pleased with the combined effort.

    I would say that your job was “well done” here at CCC and I’m sure it was pleasing to our Lord. I totally understand that this season has ended and a new one is dawning. I hope and pray for you and Gretchen that you will quickly find a local church home where you and your family can thrive and continue to serve God in ministry as God allows.

    I will miss you brother. I mean that from the bottom of my heart, but fortunately God has for ordained to put a yearly reminder in on October 28th – the day we share our birthdays! Blessings to you and your family!

    Your brother in Christ,


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