Monthly Archive for March, 2007

Artsy-fartsy

Fifteen years ago, I graduated from college with a chip on my shoulder, a fairly damaged psyche and a degree in art. After tearing free of my graduation garb and fleeing the campus faster than you can say Neoimpressionism, I settled into a fairly satisfying career as a graphic designer. (And by “settled” I mean that first I simultaneously worked at three uninspiring jobs, none of which were artistic in the least in an effort to find myself/numb my pain/pay off my college loan. What was that whole career counseling thingy again?)

After a lovely stint as a graphic designer in aesthetically pleasing and financially dumbfounding Malibu, I put my not huge but not insignificant salary on the alter of motherhood and bid my paying job adieu. (Enter hyperventilating husband now solely responsible for funding a family, a mortgage and a golf habit all in southern California.) I took it as a compliment that my boss followed me out to my car on my last day, carrying my box-o-stuff and lobbying for me to keep working from home or coming back (”You can bring the baby with you!”) as soon as possible. No way José! I was all about the mommying. (Again, enter supportive but panicked husband. Sorry, and thanks hon.)

Fast forward six years and now I’m happily the mother of two, living in perfect-for-us Meadow Vista, CA (go east from Sacramento and stop just before you hit Tahoe snow) and also happily, painting instead of doing graphic design. I still have the highest respect and appreciation for well done design…I just have zero desire to do it myself. So, about the painting…I’ve done a handful of paintings for our own home, another handful (ok, both hands) for friends’ homes and some others for offices, a church, and sold a few in a local artsy boutique. I landed a spot in the local Auburn Art Walk and don’t yet have a good feel for if “landed” is the right term to use. It seems that this is at least somewhat of a privilege (there’s an arts council and a process and such…it’s not a mere sidewalk fest for anybody who slaps the words ‘artist’ on themselves) but still it is Auburn after all. So…I dunno. Nonetheless, I’m glad for the opportunity to show my work and perhaps just as much, to be therefore motivated to get a body of work completed as well as write an artist statement.

Without exception, every single assignment for every single art class I’ve ever taken included putting the finished assignment up on the wall (or out on a table) for my classmates and professors to critique. Our professors referred to this as the “skin-thickening” process and indeed it was. As a freshman, it was terrifying. By one’s senior year we were all like “Oh yeah, bring it on!” and I’m quite sure that the artist greats of yore turned many a time in their graves as we slung the artsy jargon.

College is what it is and art majors are what they are and upon working in the “real world” I developed a keen awareness of the adversity that collaboration can provide when it comes to creativity. (aka: too many cooks in the kitchen!) But, I retain a deep and abiding appreciation for a good old fashioned peer review. That is what has me here now. The sure to be highly glitzy and celebrity-mobbed Auburn Art Walk (I’m hoping to snag some serious swag) is less than two weeks away so I need to get my waterfowl in a succession. (That’s like saying a piece of art has a “deeply significant, socially latent quality” instead of just saying “Um, is that painting like, done?”) So tonight I took pen to paper (not really, but it sounds nice) and wrote the generally despised (by artists) artist statement. I’d like your feedback on it. I think. Mostly. PLEASE GO HERE AND READ THIS first. (At least skim it. Please!) I used Ms. Goodwin’s suggestions as my writing Bible for this small endeavor. If you are looking for a sophisticated, heady, verbally rigorous statement, I’m telling you now, just go Google another artist because I’m going to disappoint you and I don’t really need to hear about it. (Hello senior year!)

Following is my wee statement. Let me know whatcha think.

June’s Artist Statement

“Organic forms with a modernist flair” is how I’d love to hear someone describe my art. And when I say “organic” I mean in both a literal sense—leaves, trees, sky, dirt—as well as stylistically. And as far as “modernist flair” goes, I just think it sounds spiffier than the good ol’ “nonrepresentational” or “abstracted imagery.” I get pretty amped about things like the veins in a leaf, all the different shades of green in springtime, my family and friends (hey, they’re organic too!) and living in the Sierra foothills. I love to paint, so these things that enthuse me end up in my paintings in some form or another. Sometimes it’s obvious (see Sierra Spring or Trees or Leaf for Lisa) and sometimes it’s not (enter modernist flair…see Everything She Needs and Nothing More or Late February). I once heard a songwriter say that as long as you start with something true, you can successfully go anywhere from there. I apply this theory to my art and thoroughly enjoy going where my brain and the paint takes me when using a single natural element as a stepping off point.

I am inspired, soothed, invigorated and satisfied when I paint. (And interrupted. I’m a mom.) At this point in my life, I’m not out to make any earth-shattering statements with my art. I do aim to make paintings that I like and given that I’m made out of the same stuff that everyone else is, I desperately hope (on a self-doubting day) and joyfully assume (on a confident day) that someone else will like them too. I currently work with acrylics as I enjoy the range of textural qualities acrylic paint affords. Because a variety of textures is inherent to the natural world, this choice works out well, given my inspirations and all.

One aspect of creating art that I especially enjoy is capturing another person’s aesthetic in a painting made specifically for the environment they inhabit, whether that be home or office. (But, if you’re “inhabiting” your office, maybe you should go home a little more!) Since becoming a mother, and thus spending much more time within my own home, my appreciation for spaces that are filled with pleasing and inspiring colors, shapes and meaning has increased. I often think of my paintings as ‘art to live with’ meaning, I intend the paintings I create to be images one wants to be around.

look ma, no wires

I will gladly go without my flying car if I can have this instead: charge small portable devices with no power chord, using a wireless receiver.

Hey, Everybody! Look at me!

1.  I live in the town where I grew up.  I love it.  It is just part of me.

2.  When riding my bike as a kid, I used to take the long way home to go down a peaceful street lined with big trees.  Now I get to live on that street.

3.  If it is sunny out, there are neighbors of all ages playing outside.  (Peaceful, not quiet!  We call it recess.)

4.  I taught fifth grade for a long time, then switched gears upon pregnancy to teaching music so I could work part-time.

4a. Although I am not outdoorsy, my favorite week of the fifth grade school year was Outdoor Ed.  The kids that I felt I knew so well were so much more themselves in this totally different environment.

5. My favorite day of work in these nine years of teaching was this past March 14 when I directed “The Music Man, Jr.”  I am still beaming at my fourth and fifth graders, who nailed everything, including the opening train chant “Rock Island”.  I couldn’t sleep the night before or the night after.  Can I do it again?  You don’t have to pay me.

6. In getting to know this musical, I developed a crush on Robert Preston (link: http://img.timeinc.net/time/magazine/archive/covers/1958/1101580721_400.jpg).

7.  I was on Romper Room (age 5).

8. One of my favorite movies is Somewhere In Time, starring Christopher Reeve and Jane Seymour.  Thanks to Bryan and Aly, we watched it in the Bel Canto room on my 21st birthday.  This movie spawned my favorite vacation to Mackinaw Island, Michigan, where the movie was filmed.  No cars are allowed on this island.  Take a look: www.grandhotel.com

9. I don’t care what your political views are.  Christopher Reeve was a brave, brave man.

10. I don’t like embryonic stem cell research, but could never look Christopher Reeve in the face and say that.  Nor my next-door neighbor with MS.

11. I skipped my now-husband’s 21st birthday party to meet Aly in Sacramento for a Ken Medema concert.

12.  I’ve never seen Star Wars start to finish.

13. I was a drum major, and loved it.  -Probably because I had a counterpart who did the lame parade stuff (which means I can’t twirll in a back alley).  I just got to do the field show.  It’s pretty fun to conduct on a 10-foot podium with a 100-piece band facing you and hundreds of supporters behind you.  You are sandwiched by energy.

14.  I can’t remember not knowing my husband.  We attended the same pre-school, and his mom was my second grade teacher.

15. The first time I had a feeling for him (his name is Jason) was the first day of school in seventh grade.  We both had first period biology.  We sat together.  At the begnning of class the teacher told us to stand up because he had a seating chart.  It was alphabetical.  He sat next to “Krista C.”  I was jealous.  Cue the theme from “The Wonder Years”.

16.  Krista C. married a guy who won millions in the lottery.

17.  Once in college, after talking to Jason, I hung up the phone, looked at my roommate, and said, “I could never be with him.”  She said, “Send me an invitation.”  She was right.

18. How come they can put a man on the moon, but call waiting is still a loud beep, during which the other person hears your voice cut out, which is followed by the awkward and unspoken, “Does the next caller out-rank me?”

19. To respond to an Addison Road theme: I am uninhibited when talking about sex, and could be totally honest with any youth group that I trusted.  However, my own views and beliefs about sex have changed so much in the past nine years that I would be hesitant to TEACH anything and call it Bible-based.

20. The actual seventh-grade girls I’ve worked with at church amaze me with their self-confidence and are only slightly pre-occupied with boys.

21. I give birth fast.

22.  Fast means you don’t get epidurals.

23. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage.  Going into an ultrasound giddy to see a heartbeat and then seeing a non-beat was the end of my innocence.  I thought my heart was going to stop, too.

24.  If you know someone who has a miscarriage, don’t tell them that it happened for a reason.

25.  It bothers me when Christians act like God’s laws apply to “Christians” and not “humans”.

26. Whenever I blog something, and then no one else does, I fear that I’ve said the wrong thing.

27. Some friends who moved last Summer GAVE us their grand piano.  That’s pretty cool.

28. If any of you come over and sing, I’ll play it for you.

29.  I have a few mentors, and I don’t know where I’d be without them.

30. My Kindergarten teacher was a man.

31. Thirtysomething was a great show.  Maybe I should watch it again now that I am thirtysomething.

32. First car: ‘68 powder blue Mustang.  I once sat in our garage, in this car, wearing my class ring and letterman’s jacket, thinking, “Life doesn’t get any better than this.”  Wow.

33.  My senior year of high school, I won a competition and got to play a clarinet concerto with an orchestra.  This was incredibly validating.  It was by a composer named Crusell.  The critic called the piece “a less-familiar chestnut of the clarinet repertoire”.

34.  In sixth grade, I threw up in front of a crowd waiting for Shamu the whale.

35.  I am a landlord.  I debated sharing this one.  We are not wealthy, we just did crazy stuff with our money.  It took two years, many books, a few meetings with those more experienced, marriage counseling, and three out-of-state trips for my husband to convince me to adventure with him in real estate.  He convinced me that if we are both going to be teachers, the methods that worked in our parents’ economy will not work in ours.  Blog back to me in a few years and I’ll tell you if we were brilliant or stupid.

36.  Shortly after we bought something in Tennessee, Karen blogged about a tornado.  (Don’t think that didn’t come up in our house.)

37. As far as babyhood goes, we got both ends of the spectrum.  Our daughter cried for hours on end, for no apparant reason.  She was just pissed.  Our son is very snuggly.  If you smile at him across the room, he will laugh.  Thank goodness.

38.  She is much happier now.

39. My parents were scheduled to fly on September 11, 2001.  We didn’t hear from them for four hours, in the midst of the chaos.  That was a very surreal experience.  And oh yeah, my dad had been diagnosed with cancer a month prior to that day.

40.  He was sick for a year, and is now fine.  They shrunk it, and removed it.  Did you know your left lung has two lobes, and your right lung has three?  He had the middle lobe of his right lung removed.

41.  My dad started playing tuba again to maximize his remaining lung capacity.

42.  I have been accompanying a women’s ensemble for seven years.  It is multi-generational, and they are some of my best friends.

43.  Someone is going to have to show me in person how to link something on the blog.  I don’t get it.  Why can’t you just right click or something?

44. I had never heard of the Emerging Church before Addison Road.  I found this site because I googled “Aly Hawkins”.  Little did I know…

45. Whenever I see “Santa Fe” used as an adjective, I think of Mike.  He would make up recipes, and call it “Santa Fe ___”… Santa Fe Chicken, Santa Fe mushrooms, Santa Fe brownies…

46. I felt like I saw Mike turn into a man with each day that he dated Gretchen.

47. Jason and I  were in two small groups over the course of eight years.  They were wonderful.  In lieu of small group, we are now dating.  This is just a hiatus, but I rather like it.

47.  Jason’s New Year’s resolution was to woo me.  I like it a lot.

48. Did you know that when James Taylor sings, he is singing only to me?

49.  My husband is hosting a poker night downstairs right now because the Bunko husbands got jealous.  (Well, that’s what I think!)

50. I enjoy reading your thoughts and feelings, Everybody!

How far we’ve come…

When I first started editing, I made this little short one day while unemployed. It was passed around my local motorcycle club, and somehow found it’s way to YouTube.

Strange how far you go when you’re not even paying attention…

high stress

Life is high-stress, low satisfaction today. That usually bodes well.